Want Not
8 Nov
Now that the election is over, I can go back to loving November.
Things I love about this month:
- Gratitude posts on Facebook and Twitter
- The Food
- Red Cups at Starbucks. Last year’s were better, but nevermind.
Don’t you just FEEL cozier?
- Movember
It’s creepy for a good cause.
- NaNoWriMo, even though it’s not my thing to write fiction. I love the idea AND the name.
- Christmas is coming, but not yet here, and that’s a state of limbo that I can love.
Back to gratitude…let’s talk about what I have, shall we?
- A FAMILY. A real one, too, complete with offspring.
- A husband who is not just generally great, but also tall and can open jars.
- A baby who sleeps. At night.
- Sweet new threads to help me shift from fierce, eyeliner-and-lipstick black-clothes-wearing 60-hour worklady into what Stacy and Clinton insist on calling “Hot Mom on the Go.” I prefer “washable.”
- A KINDLE. I realize that I just gave that the same grammatical weight that I gave having a family, but this was a long time coming, and my lovely friends ended the Kindle Standoff in my home.
It lights up but in a good way! - A job. That comes with a laptop. I always knew that would make me feel like I was in the CIA.
- Many other things: house, car, health, groceries, etc etc.
So WHY did my trip to the mall to return some stuff make me feel so EMPTY inside? Not empty, like, my life needs purpose. Empty like I don’t have enough cashmere sweaters! And that headband with the feathers! It would go witheverything. I would wear it daily and it would sleep on my pillow I need it. Ooh, look at those SLIPPERS!
I had to get out.
On my way out the door I saw the stack of catalogs and nearly grabbed one to browse from the safety of my home. You know, to get new ideas for styling the things I already own. Fortunately, I saw through that one in time to just keep walking. My life is not incomplete, I have plenty of cashmere sweaters, etc etc.
It’s a good thing I didn’t take one. When I finally got home, that catalog was lying in wait outside my door.
What I should do: recycle it immediately. What I will do: recycle it immediately…after I read it cover to cover.